Well, he is here and in just 15 minutes he was able to steal our hearts completely. One look at my new son and all the fear and anxiety that I have harbored over the past couple of days has dissipated. I look at him and realize that this is a different little boy with already different mannerisms and habits from my oldest son. He has many similar features as well as his own individual features and the love I feel for him is beyond words and description. My biggest concern now is what happens when I go home today. He has already met his big brother and I must say that the interaction was fairly uneventful. I can only pray that things go well once all four of us are home together as one big happy family.
I do anticipate a slight struggle with the bottle situation as Nicholas has seemed to regress while visiting us in the hospital. All of a sudden the small Enfamil bottle (that he hasn’t used since he was about 2 months old) was all that he wanted. He cried and reached for the bottle, but I was able to appease him with real food. That is only indicative of things to come, but I am prepared. I truly believe that I will conquer this struggle with love and understanding in my role as super-mommy ( I know I am just setting myself up for failure but one can dream).
Well, I will keep it short and sweet and get back to my men but I will have lots to talk about in the weeks to come. Wish me luck.